大  爱  无  边

                                             ——生命中的感动

      我是一个先天性残疾患者，自出生便于正常人相异，手脚不灵便，生活常不能自理。但有幸遇见善良、朴实、厚道的父母，在他们的爱抚下，我健康、开心地生活了十九年。时至今日，我也从没抱怨过命运的不公。因为我深知“自己永远都不是最不幸的人，我身边还有一群爱我的人和我爱的人”。

    中国神话寓言中说：远古女娲用泥土捏制了五千个男男女女，但女娲精力有限，在捏制到大约四千人时，她的精力即将耗尽，为完成原有的计划，女娲撒出大把大把的泥团，由此造成部分人出现先天性残疾，如腿脚不灵便、口齿不清晰、脑子不灵光等。我就是他们中的一员。

    一九八八年的冬天，雪特别多。柔柔的雪花带来了冬的讯息，也捎来了河南一个小城中一普通家庭中的一员，一个新的生命就此诞生。呱呱的坠地声让一家人欢欣鼓舞，然而停留片刻的微笑便被阴云替代。残疾儿、残疾儿、残疾儿……哀号充斥着整个房间，母亲的眼角挂着泪痕，父亲闷着头坐在墙角，一双双渴求的耳朵在等待着声音的响起。沉闷、死寂、窒息……微笑--沉闷--微笑--死寂--微笑--窒息--微笑……微笑？…不…对，微笑，婴儿的微笑，天真的、无邪的、纯洁的微笑，母亲释怀了，父亲的额头舒展了……

    今天的我无法想象当年的父母是如何下定决心要抚养我长大的？但我深知抚养一个残疾儿长大的不易。现在的我还不能为父母做些什么，谨以此文来感怀我的父母。

张龙龙

2008年6月1日

Great Love is Boundless

-- from the bottom of my heart

1 June, 2008

I am a congenital disabled boy. I was different from others at my birth: my hands and feet were inflexible. I can not do my activities of daily life. Fortunately, I have had very kind, caring and gold-hearted parents. They have taken care of me and made my last 19 years a healthy and happy one.

In our Chinese fable, at the beginning of our world, NÜWO, the creator of the earth, planned to make 5000 people with her hands using mud. That was quite a hard and tedious work. When she finished the first 4000, she was exhausted but wanted to accomplish her goal. So she threw the dough of mud in pieces and deformed creatures appeared: extremity-deformed; speech-disabled and mentally-retarded. I am one of them.

In the winter of 1988, with soft snow flakes falling, a disabled small creature was born in Henan province, China. The first cries made the family thrilled, but a moment later the atmosphere changed abruptly. A deformed, deformed, deformed, an anomaly. The mother cried with tears dropping and the father sat at the corner in silence. People were waiting for the next responding sounds. Silence, asphyxia, deadly silence…smile, deadly silence, asphyxia, smile…Smile? The newborn’s! The newborn’s smile, a simple, pure smile. Now mother relaxed and the winkles on father’s forehead smoothed. 

Now I can not imagine how my parents made the decisive determination to not abandon but to raise me. Everyone knows the hardship of taking care of and raising a disabled child. Now I am still incapable to help my parents in any aspect, but I want to write this humble article to thank my beloved parents.